All I know prooved in real life through experiences , which is above theory , because life beats the books , movies , games … ; and if you open the eyes , you’ll see I don’t say rubbish .
I liked erotic stuff since I was small and I tried to not be seen as a weird guy at highschool by showing more interest for pornography than I really had , which prooved to not worth even if I’d becamed popular .
I had an obsession for horror movies , not shure why , but it fed my shyness ; my dad had no patience on educating me and be a model of attitude .
I loved to draw , so I was the best at school , wanting to become a painter by going to arts school after general school , but choosed to be a computer programer ( because it was known as well payed ) ; another huge mistake .
At 8th class I had such life that I skipped most hours because of the problems with some school colleagues ; once I came from the school , they chased me and I tought they wanted to mock me even when I got home ; even thinking to stab them when they get there .
Before 2009 I had such a life that many times I tought about suicide and violence because : in highschool there was no week without stupid jokes from my classmates and when I was skiping hours , which was very often , my PC was open on porn stuff ; at school there was no week without a fight ; I was afraid to go outside for something so simple as buying a bread expecting the same treatment from the kids around , even if almost never happen , and to fight back at highschool because of the many skiped hours .
I wanted to stab myself in the heart with a knife by falling like a log on the floor or through myself from the window of the 6th floor and fall on head , both to die fast so I can feel less or no pain .
Now I’m so differit you could realize that in a matter of seconds ( if you knew me before ) , because self improvement made my life a lot better , prooving that disadvantages of the change to have a better life are too little to make you still live like that , even if on the beginning looks hopeless .
Only who succeeded knows best , now reality is not chasing me , I’m chasing it .
I’m giving real faqs to make you’re life an interesting story , if you want so , and you might confuse the principles with quotes , but those are just things some people sayd , many being very hard to understand or having nothing to do with self education .
As a proove , look for Adrianos Fidi or bonded on social networks , especially Self Improvement Group from Facebook .