The aim of this blog: to (finally) express the "current" me and to find the meaning in everyday life -- events, social interactions, pain, pressures, changes, adaptions, -- the "how-to" for coping, moving on, proceeding with the forwardness of time when you feel incompetent, unready, unwilling, unmotivated, dissatisfied with the past and fearful of the future.
I've been through a lot, it's changed me, and I've decided to change -- to cope with stress, sadness, rejection and frustration (in a healthier way than I used to), to allow myself self expression (whereas I used to restrain myself), and to make exceptions (in all my legality -- to indulge, in crying, eating cookies, being silent and running away when appropriate and needful).
I am married, a puppy-mother, I work two jobs, I keep putting off starting college although I really want to, I'm learning about finance, money management, time management, and prioritizing, I'm re-evaluating my religious foundations, getting over separation anxiety and finding emotions and weaknesses in myself that I never realized before.
It's January, 2011, and seven months after starting this blog,
I'm still here.