willowdot21
Berkshire
Female,part time wife, not by choice, full time mother by nature.I am not as happy go lucky as I used to be but I am still bubbling along on simmer!
I have three handsome sons all grown and flown.Just recently the youngest has got married and that was quite a milestone.It was a wonderful day.
29 months ago I was working, running a home, driving and socializing then bang in a split second all that was gone.
I had an accident at home. I broke my back, not for the first time. Unfortunately this time I had broken it really badly and it was truly messed up so I had to have two operations. I was told told before each operation that the outcome could mean I spend the rest of my life in a wheelchair.
Still as some guy once wrote "I am still standing " yes "better than I ever was " not quite but with the help of a walking stick and as long as I do not stand or sit in one position for too long, I am still standing!
I had lots of friends before the accident but when things like this happen, you loose most of them. Their lives move on and mine stood still and so they left me behind ...I know that is just the way life is but it hurts and always will. Then you look around and see those who are still there for you, these friends are the roses in your garden they need to be tended well. They are the diamonds in the dust,
I will of been married 40yrs this year another milestone ...millstone what a difference a letter makes. 40 years is a long time.
Pain and boredom are my enemies now, I have to find different ways to approach life, use my pain befriend it almost...yer right , well that is what they tell me at the pain clinic ROFLMAO if only I could!
Recently I have found an outlet for my fears, frustrations and night terrors .
I have started writing poetry if that name can be applied to my writing. I hope I do not come over as a moaning winger. I hope I am past all that. I also hope that you might see how the poetry is moving from very dark through the grey and hopefully in to light ??
